Croas Jr.

Fed up and really need to vent before I do something stupid

You ever feel like you just want to give in but you know that you can't? I know that it would help ease some of the tension, at least for a little while but I also know that in the long run it doesn't really help. Hell in the long run probably just make things worse. But I've got so much crap running through my head and really don't know what to do or where to turn.

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Croas Jr.

I want to give in so bad

You ever feel like you just want to give in but you know that you can't? I know that it would help ease some of the tension, at least for a little while but I also know that in the long run it doesn't really help. Hell in the long run probably just make things worse. But I've got so much crap running through my head and really don't know what to do or where to turn.
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Croas Jr.

Writer's write

They say that writer's write. That if you want to be a successful writer there are two things you have to do as much as possible. The first one is write. And the second is read. I enjoy doing both. Even though I'm not all that great at either, I still enjoy them. But my true passion is photography. There is something magical about capturing a moment in time for others to see. Creating a memory, sharing what you see with others, taking something most people would overlook and turning it into art. I hope to someday be able to do both. But for now I guess I'll just write this and call it good for the night.
Croas Jr.

Writer's Block: Meow vs. Arf

Cats or dogs-- which do you prefer, and why?


Hands down going to have to say dogs. I live with my brother and sis-in-law and their cats, around 30 of them. I love them to death but not a cat person. Max, my pup, is always happy to see me. He doesn't go to the bathroom all over the house (and won't go inside period, even on his piddle pad). He loves to cuddle and play. He doesn't bite me or dig his claws into me. He doesn't pee on me. Yeah give me a dog any time. Especially my sweet baby boy.
my foot

Pissed off

Went back to the doctor about my ankle today. He was a complete ass and seriously pissed me off. Not to mention didn't do a damn thing to help. Apparently I've got torn tendons and ligaments but they're on the outside of my ankle. The stupid bone chip on the inside of my ankle is still there but he's not convinced that is what's causing the pain. He also told me that I had 2 choices, I could let them run a bunch of tests and more than likely they could tell me what's not the problem but not likely fix it or I could go see the other doctor across town who has extra training in ankles. I decided to go to the other doctor. Called his office this afternoon and they said that they had to get the records from the doctor I saw today before they can schedule an appointment. So I called the first doctor's office and asked them to fax the records over.
I called the second doctor's office back later to see if they had gotten the records yet (because like I'm an idiot I thought they'd do it today) and was told it would probably be 5-7 days before they got the records. Then after that the other doctor would have to review the records and decide whether or not to accept me as a patient. So if he doesn't that take me as a patient my choice is either to go to Denver or Salt Lake (both of which are about 4-5 hours from here) This sucks!
my foot

I hate my stupid ankle

I'm frustrated as hell right now. I was off work (well at least at Wal-Mart) for 2 weeks because of my stupid ankle. It was sore as hell for the first few days and then got gradually better. Last night was my first night back at work and now it's killing me again. I go back to the doctor on Monday and hoping that they'll actually do something to fix the problem. I've been dealing with the this (insert not nice word here) most of my life. And it's been getting progressively worse the last few years. They did an MRI about on the 9th and get the results on the 21st. Part of me is afraid they're going to do surgery but a bigger part of me is afraid they're either not going to do anything or just do the same things they've been doing. Ugh. Okay well I have to get ready to go to my day job so I'm signing off.
Croas Jr.

I have internet, yippie

Finally got the internet hooked up in my apartment today. Just wanted to leave a quick note to let you know. I'm off to bed now cause I'm beyond exhausted and seriously hoping I can get some sleep in the near future.
Croas Jr.

Finally have internet

They're coming to hook up the internet and cable in my apartment tomorrow. I probably should have called and cancelled it before they came because it's going to wipe me out until next payday but what the hell. I miss being able to get online when I want to and not having to worry about doing it on someone else's schedule.

I have free access at the apartment complex but the lab is only open from 7:30 a.m. to 4:30 p.m Mon-Fri and with my schedule that really sucks. Can also go to the library but you're limited to an hour a day there (in 2- 30 min periods and if you don't use the whole 30 mins you still only get 2 sessions). Not to mention if they're busy you have to wait until there's a computer available.

And like I said with my schedule it'll just be easier (and a lot nicer) to have it up in my apartment. Not to mention it will be nice to have cable again. All I have right now is an antanne which doesn't pick up that many channels (and half the time you lose the signal anyway!)

They're supposed to be at my apartment between 1-3 tomorrow afternoon (which is my night off) so I'll try to post another update tomorrow night. Leave for Ga. on Sat morning so I probably won't be until I get back next Thurs.
Croas Jr.

quick update

Still no word as far as housing is concerned which is more that a tad bit frustrating but I'm doing my best to keep my chin up about it. On a positive note however my job at Wal-Mart is going great. Had a bit of a rough patch about a week ago but that was more because of everything else that was happening and not really getting any sleep for about a week straight. Tuesday morning I got a phone call and asked if I could come into work early. I told them yes but that I needed to make sure that I would be able to go to an appointment that I had already had set-up around my schedule. They had no problem with it so I didn't have any issues with coming in early. The cool thing was when I got to work I found out that they had pushed me up to full-time. It's definitely going to help out the finances working a full 40 hrs a week and truthfully has improved my outlook on life. Now if I can just figure out what I'm going to do about a place to live things will definitly be taking a turn for the better.

Hoping that she called the shelter today and that I'll find out what's going on when I get there tonight. Right now my extension end tomorrow which means that after tomorrow I won't have anywhere to go unless they grant me an extension on the extension. A big part of the problem is that even if they do if she doesn't have a place for me in transistional housing I'm still going to end up on the streets because with my car payment, insurance and phone I can't afford market rent. So if you pray please send a few my way, if you don't a few positive thoughts wouldn't hurt either.

Guess that's it for now.